while lying in bed, in the dark, trying to sleep, i moved to brush away an itch in my upper arm, and discovered a spider, or a hairy bug of some sort, crawling up my body, trying to kill me.
my reaction was to throw it off my body, and in a split second realization of what happened, shriek and jump up, jittering all around on my bed. then i continued with my overreaction by turning on my light quickly, crouching on my bed, looking around suspiciously, and breathing heavily while muttering scared and upset nothings under my breath.
since i am now paranoid and scared of my room, I am camped out in my brother’s room, where i will sleep tonight, and probably stay until i work up the courage to go investigate my room.
now i keep getting freaked out because my body is still jittery and overly sensitive to everything. my dog is trying to comfort me, but i am kind of upset with her for not protecting me. also, i am nervous that the mystery bug might have injected me with its mystery venom. i feel like my body is going to seize or paralyze soon.
it’s okay to hate me for this post. i kind of hate myself right now. this just proves that i am not emotionally equipped to survive in a world of things that want to hurt me.
i am such a baby. wahhh.
